Baobeis, good luck for your O Levels..

*Jia you*

随想

有些日子

走过了

就过了

再回头

也只能笑看从前

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某名的伤感

隐隐约约

却实实在在

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思绪

层层叠叠

无法理

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信心这家伙

什么时候离家出走的?

你

什么时候回家啊?

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要认识到

自己不是只有( )

而是还有( )

（ ）是什么？

可以是时间

可以是自己珍惜的在乎的任何事物

在乎的

未必看得到碰得到

但是至少

还能感受到

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最近

有点抗拒长大

精神陷入中年危机

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One day, we will have to let go...

One day, we will have to let go...

For my dear baobeis...

So much went through my mind...as I looked at the pictures...from many years back...


... what seem so long ago...yet...not so long ago....

I found these photos as I was looking through my old photos....Do you all remember the Mid-Autumn Festival celebration? Think you all are the last batch of students who experienced that event....

I taught some of you Chinese back then...in campus 2.... our cosy little campus....where jingming told me that he was the "subject leader" when I leave the classroom to take the markers/ radio/ paper...=pppp

So coincidental...your sec 1 camp t-shirts were yellow! Hmmmm...did I draw part of the camp t-shirt? Because i wish I did a better job with your sec 3 camp t-shirts...=p

*Aiyoooo sooooo cuteeeeee....*

I could hear myself screaming as I attempted to climb down this wall with cher yee nearby capturing that on film (now where is that tape...hmmmm...) and the experience was great...because you all were part of it....

Really I had my reservations, my doubts....because you all were my first upper sec class....

But boy I was glad, as you all are most probably my last graduating form class....I would not have exchanged it for anything....

Staying back in the hall...Standing in the sun with you all after some issues... coming back from MC only to find that some of you missed me so much such that you need to seek attention by getting yourselves into trouble so that I could nag at you somehow made me love you all more...

I remember seeing this correction tape that somehow swang across the window I was teaching downstairs....and I was like," Is that from my class? What are they fishing for? "

I remember some funny (old) jokes cracked during lessons....

I remember how we stayed back...till late afternoons...even at night....to do up the boards...

Remember how I was not supposed to give any homework for a week? But I don't think you all will be that cruel? =)

Was it really just last year? Was it ivy who say wah, let us show them how to cheer lar...and suddenly...we were up on the stage...hahahha.......

And....our last national day together....

Dear baobeis....I will miss you all a lot....even though I only get to teach some of you this year...

I know I should hold back my tears...

I know I should be happy and wave good bye smilingly...

But I could not... *sheepish look*

There will be this part of my youth, my life, that will be graduating with you....and it will never be the same again......

Take care...

And do your best....

Promise?

Missing you all already......

你.听.说.了吗？

大概是因为听觉不太灵光，因此怕对方听不见，或是自己也听不见，因此老妈跟邻居、老爸聊天的声量用“震耳欲聋”来形容居然一点儿也不夸张。

必须集中精神改卷的我因为思路不断被打断而皱起了眉头。

突然，我停住了。

伸手拉直了眉头，狠狠敲了自己的头一下。

我是在嫌老妈吵吗？

我怎么会这么想？

我又怎么能这么想？

老妈说起话来中气十足是如何值得庆幸的事情~

病情暂时稳定并不代表已经风平浪静。

不是杞人忧天。

老妈一个月少说也要到医院四、五趟。

想想已经很久没陪她到医院了。

老妈总说没什么，有女佣陪就行了，别请假；看医生没什么，她现在情况还可以，反正到医院最多是做“三等”良民--等看医生检查、等报告、等拿药，还不断强调医院要照顾这么多人这么等是应该的。

暴风雨的前夕一切可以看起来很平静。

没流露出来的心情不代表心中无涟漪。

“哇，赶工啊？”

老妈突然出现在房门外。

“是啊~”

“那煮点东西给你哦~”

“好啊~”

看着老妈好像有点无聊又拼命说自己很忙的样子，心里可说抹上了一片忧郁的蓝。

如果我集中精神，更努力点完成手头上的活儿，是不是能抽出更多时间陪她呢？

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“没关系，你忙嘛~”

“It's ok, I am very busy you know...”

“我在你就有口福啰，可以点菜~”

“What can I do for you?”

为什么听了，心情有点酸酸的...

那天听到老妈用马来文叮咛我做事，差点晕了过去。

大概是成天跟女佣用掺杂马来文、英文、方言的方式交谈，跟我聊天时一时转不过来。

还被取笑说怎么一点儿马来文都听不懂。（因为她不是讲一点儿马来文，是一大段。）

非常明显，自己能做的还有很多。

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在忙碌的生活中

我们究竟听到了什么又听了多少？

有时候你以为你听到了听明白了

但有是否如此？

很多时候朋友、同事说的

我们都基于礼貌、身份、责任比较认真聆听

身边最亲的人说的

却因为自己回到家大概已经很疲累无法专心聆听（甚至听到睡着了）

或因为工作缠身听了一会儿便说等一下再听/答复（而过后忙着忙着就....）

或自以为是地在他们还没说完要说的话时便认为自己已经了解了情况/掌握了主要讯息

开始发表自己的看法或提供解决方案

其实

他们或许只是想你听听他们说话

内容不一定很重要或有重点

说话的过程中

他们或许也很疲累导致词不达意；

有时说话含糊不清；

怕说错话不敢多说；

甚至怕占据听的人太多时间尝试长话短说

心里却闷闷不乐或因删除了太多细节无法很好地说明

说不清楚听的人也会厌烦

有时还会怀疑对方有没有在听

如果都累了

那就先歇会再说

歇会再听吧~

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喧闹中

为何听到

寂寞的心

在喃喃自语？

*classic*

...

*eh?*

......

*扮鬼脸*

不能沮丧哦！！

今天是儿童节，大家要记得保持一颗童心哦~

累

怎么

这么累啊