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呵呵，财神爷祝大家新年快乐，身体健康！

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5F & 5G wish everyone a Happy "Niu" Year!

Hahahhaa....what is happening?

Guess whose birthday?

5F & G are always so spontaneous when it comes to photo taking! Hahaha!

*Mooooo*~ I mean, *woooooof*!

No worries, we want a slice of that really cute cake, so Gab is spared from any pranks...=)

COunting the number of candles...I have lost count...=p

Happy birthday to Gab!

5F & G getting ready...

To wish everyone a Happy "Niu" Year! =)

遗憾.....

跟老妈很少有这样随兴的照片......大多数是标准姿势和笑容的.....

其实照片不一定要拍得很好、要修补所有的不完美吧~

最重要的是捕捉到那一刻的心情......

我还是学不到两成功力。

真的不是找借口也不想找借口。

真的无法在失眠的您凌晨三点还在厨房忙着的时候陪在身旁......

真的无法不为了完成一些分内的工作而失去了学多一道菜的机会......

真的无法吗？

如果

这真的是我们最后一次庆祝新年呢？

我知道

这会是我一辈子的遗憾......

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有时候

说起一些事情

看似轻描淡写

不是因为放弃了

不是因为投降了

不是因为看透了

不是因为放下了

纯粹

只是可能因为自己选择淡化忧伤

选择看到

仍有很蓝很蓝的天空......




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您走出了忧郁





决定把握最后的时间到处走走





展现惊人的意志力、体力





甚至让我深感懊恼





因为精神体力早已透支





深深感受到心有余而力不足......





工作缠身的我只能在深夜时分





翻看您和女佣外出所拍的照片





为什么陪在您身边的人不是我





我知道





这会是我一辈子的遗憾......

...

怎么一首歌

会撩起这么多思绪.......

好怀念......

好怀念....

一起布置课室、大声谈笑的日子......

这一年踏进课室

虽然没那么热闹

但看到几个宝贝嘴里唠叨着这么多年来从来没得奖

（真是的，大概是猫太大只、老鼠太多把评判吓走了....）

却还是很用心地利用再循环材料设计出旗袍和其它装饰物品

看我“牵着牛儿”进课室

大声嚷嚷：“看到你真好~来，给我剪~”

（总觉得那些小牛长得点儿怪异......可以冒充驴子、鳄鱼.....）

心里真的十分感动......

其实，早我的心中，你们早已经赢了......

今年.....

大家都要加油哦~

想

没想到......

呵呵~

在忙碌了一整天后，原本疲惫不堪......

没想到还有机会听您“碎碎念”......甚至唠叨......

没想到还有机会“点菜”，并在傍晚7点到家的时候吃到您和阿妹一块儿准备的姜葱炒牛肉丝和冬菇炒菠菜.......

没想到还有机会听到您小声地建议要去一趟ntuc......

没想到老豆会拨电回家问您是否要“赏灯”而您决定“应酬”一下更衣出门......历来最不起眼的灯饰因为您的兴致而变得耀眼夺目......

没想到还有机会看着您选购大概是要在新年时候穿的衣裳......还问怎么这么便宜......呵呵......

最不可思议的是您还很有策略地在选购了上衣后嚷嚷着ntuc快要关了！接着吩咐我要分头行事--我排队付钱，而您和阿妹在瞬间便消失于人群中直奔ntuc........

没想到还有机会看到您再次对周遭的人事物产生兴趣、进行分析讨论........

没想到您对德士驾照即将被吊销而感到丝丝不舍......甚至有想保留的想法......

没想到居然还有机会看到您从前的模样.......听到您中气十足的嗓音.......

我知道.......这是暂时性的.......

就如您所说的，那个“东西”随时会“爆炸”........

时间永远不够.......我会珍惜.......这借来的时间......

能否就让我借着？就继续“罚款”吧......

To yy =)

15岁那年

框着青春的镜框

看到的世界

黑白分明

不容模糊



镜框在隐形眼镜登场后

寂寞隐退

偶尔在眼睛疲惫的时候

默默代班



隐形的

并不代表不存在

有形的

并不代表存在



2*岁这年

框着成熟的镜框

看到的世界

黑白交错

是没有更换的镜片模糊了视觉

还是视觉纯粹的

模糊了



擦擦镜框

揉揉眼睛

黑与白之间

本容得下模糊的

灰色地带



之前以为看得清楚

清楚得自以为是

是不是怎由得判断

现在终于清楚



是否真的想换副镜框

看得更清楚

说真的

有什么好看

值得看

更清楚是想让自己清楚看到什么

还是人总是只看到自己想看到的

或以为自己清楚的



外头

似乎比从前复杂

若带着15岁的镜框

和2*现在的自己

内心

是否较淡定平静




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It was great catching up with ya my friend....Last year was the first time we met after 10 years...this year, we met again....

Seeing you in those specs brought a smile to my face....

That familiar pair of specs.....

Did'nt I see it many, many years back?

Hahahahha.....

When we took a snap together, there was no need to take off our specs and (try to) look pretty....(Ok, i got to try....)

We are just ourselves.....

And how many people are there that we can just be ourselves?

And I mean our real, real selves? =)

Walking to your house was like taking a walk down memory lane.....

We may meet once a year......

Taking a peek at the different worlds through each other's glasses...

But each time, it was as though we had just met up a while ago....

Even as time trinkles ever so quietly bringing our closed ones away......

Miss ya mum and her cooking......

And the crazy cat that meows "mummy"......

And the crazy brothers......

Boy I was so bloated when I left your house....

I'll be back.=)

To me to you: 4 Formiable 2008

Perhaps I did not tell you...

That this morning I was really nervous....even though I was joking and teasing some of you.....

Perhaps I did not tell you...

That when I saw the power point you guys did during Teachers' Day......I was really very, very touched.....

Perhaps I did not tell you....

That in my heart, 'F' stands for Fern's Formidable Family.....

Perhaps I did not tell you....

That even though I have quite a few doraemons of different sizes......this is my favorite Doraemon.....

我记得那天早上

小叮当乘搭时光机

出现在椅子上

然后你们突然大声唱起了生日快乐...

Perhaps I did not tell you....

And perhaps you did not remember....

But I do remember....vividly....

That there was this one day I was really low morale....

And I walked past a few of you.....down....and I think, fighting back tears.....

When I went back to the staff room after lesson......

This card really made my day....

And I told myself

I will want to be there for you all too.....

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You are a very special class......

Whose formidable spirit never fails to bring smiles to my face despite all the monkey business...(That is why I chose monkey as the theme for your graduation gifts....and of course there is another very special reason....maybe a few of you can guess.....but only a few of you will read this....)

There were times I have lost my temper....

There were times I was frustrated....

Times I could have done more....as your form teacher, your subject teacher....

But there were definately so many times I have smiled and laughed with you all....

Thank you for embracing me for who I am too...with your big hearts.....

For those of you who have made it, congratulations....

For those of you venturing into other paths for different reasons...bless you and take care.....

I will miss those times we had.....those spontaneous moments.....

回想曾和你们共度的时光

真的真的会很想你们的......

Lotsa love,

From me to you

失落

看着孩子们



或笑



或哭


这么乖，却少了机会



莫名的失落



久久无法挥去